After spending some time with a new friend and talking about the past I've been wondering if I'm as strong as she sees me or if I'm just not. Is it possible that I feel weaker than I actually am? Am I strong for surviving and being happy and wanting to live a happy life? Am I still strong if It terrifies me to have sex? Am I still strong if sometimes I have flashbacks? If I feel terrible when I see my father? 
I've been feeling stronger than I thought I was. My friend's been showing me indirectly that I have grown soo much.
I wish I was over everything but whatever, this takes time eh?
Why the hell am I thinking that much? I'm feeling more confident, more feminine, sexier, hotter. I'm starting to feel like a whole woman and I want to be powerful, in control, strong. I'm a fighter. My friend is right, I'm stronger than I think.
Thanks friend for helping me this week.
I've been feeling stronger than I thought I was. My friend's been showing me indirectly that I have grown soo much.I wish I was over everything but whatever, this takes time eh?
Why the hell am I thinking that much? I'm feeling more confident, more feminine, sexier, hotter. I'm starting to feel like a whole woman and I want to be powerful, in control, strong. I'm a fighter. My friend is right, I'm stronger than I think.Thanks friend for helping me this week.
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Survivor, I know exactly what you mean.
How can I be strong when I see the rape every night?
That doesn't exactly make me feel strong, it makes me feel haunted,at times damned.
I think what makes us strong, or at least strong in the eyes of others is that we haven't given up. Yes, we have crisis of faith,spells of never ending doubt, but something inside keeps us from offing ourselves that something might be called "strength"
And yes, you are strong. Every time you verbalize your state of mind, every time you put your suffering into words, you become a little bit stronger.
It makes a lot of sense tigrmachine.
How can I be strong when I hurt so feep inside but at the same time live a happy life.
It's true, what makes us strong is that we fight for our life. That no matter how hard or painful it is, I get up and fight and deal with it and want happiness.
Thanks for your words and support! :)
Glad I could help out a fellow survivor.
I appreciate it a lot. :)
healing can bring a myriad of confusing issues including is my new self worth ok for me to have, and it is and should have bene in the first place
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