I'm not going to link tons of resources, discuss incest from a psych point of view. It's just me. How to fucking live a happy life when you were sexually abused. You know how to deal with men, sex, body issues, whatever.
I *think* I'd like a partner but deep down inside, I know I won't ever get married or have kids. The abuse left deep wound, I just can't see myself havin' sex with most men, I'm terrified...
The last guy I dated, well we didn't had sex but when we came close to and were heavily making out, I was crying (he was too centered on his pleasure) but I wasn't doing well. Incest really messes up a girl. I hate my abuser for what he did and when I see him, part of me wants to just beat the crap out of him and the other part of me is proud to be who I am. Great life, great career but emotionally? The scars are profound, people can't tell tho.
I went in therapy and it saved me, I am a new person, but somethings can't be erased and that's a fucking tragedy.
I *think* I'd like a partner but deep down inside, I know I won't ever get married or have kids. The abuse left deep wound, I just can't see myself havin' sex with most men, I'm terrified...
The last guy I dated, well we didn't had sex but when we came close to and were heavily making out, I was crying (he was too centered on his pleasure) but I wasn't doing well. Incest really messes up a girl. I hate my abuser for what he did and when I see him, part of me wants to just beat the crap out of him and the other part of me is proud to be who I am. Great life, great career but emotionally? The scars are profound, people can't tell tho.
I went in therapy and it saved me, I am a new person, but somethings can't be erased and that's a fucking tragedy.
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